32 facts of guys do

This is all i can help.
Good luck to all of you guys out there.

UPDATED! cause 1 guy missing =o

my 7 years besties

I made this with my sincere heart

19/03/2010

I feel warm having you guys..
Thanks =')

My Photograph Experience by using "Nokia N78"

BY:NELIUS LEE SEE HONG

My Piano Room

Beach,Sunset & Etc (Landscape)



















Hope you guys like it.
Take Care.

My experience

You know what's sad about love?

It's when you happen to know that there's just no hope for you being together yet you still pray to make it work...
It's when your mind says let go but your hearts says hold on, and most of all, it's when no matter how you try to forget him/her you just can't.. because of the fact that u still love him/her & you just dont know why...
Try loving someone you've loved before and you'll realize that it will either lead to the same thing that happened before... Or something better. Not hard isn't it?
But why not try loving someone who doesn't love you back...
It's either you see yourself giving up or dying daily...
If you love and get hurt, love more...
If you love more and get hurt more, love even more...
If you love even more and get hurt even more, love some more until it hurts no more.
The gauge of how much you truly treasure something or someone is not how happy you are with them...
But how sad you are when you lose them...
"One grows distant from another not because of indifference, but because of fear.
There's the fear that the hurt gets greater as one gets closer...
A recognition of the tendency to fall deeply, and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities...
Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion... but the overwhelming presence of it..
Falling in love is never a decision - always by chance..
Staying in love is never a chance - always by choice..
And falling out of love is never a choice - always a decision..
Attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice.
Listen:Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen... We may meet someone by chance... But loving & staying with that someone is still a choice...
Just because my eyes don't have tears.. It doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry.
Just because you always see me strong.. it doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.
Sometimes i choose to pretend i'm happy so i dont have to explain to people who would never understand...
Smiling is always easier than explaining to all why i am sad...
It's never the tears that measure the pain... sometimes, it's the smile we fake...
A person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eye... while everyone still believes in the smile on your face...
The person you love most has the best capacity to make you the happiest person in the world...
and may give you the worst heartache you can never imagine...
Time can heal wounds, but it can never get back what we once had & lost...
Time can't tell when or how we would move on after all was said and done...
Because god gave us time but we never valued this gift he had given us. So learn to treasure the ones you choose to love now...
Because when they go.. there won't be time to have them back...
In life , i have done every way of fightning. Heard every painful truth... been in every heartbreaking scene, and felt very dreadful feeling.
I thought going thru it all will then make me realize that i have to stop the fight at least to save a little for myself... But you know what's funny?
Its when i seem to be so much tired of it all... but still can't just quit no matter how hard it is.
And i have to continue hoping that one day...
I'll be able to find someone who could love me not just "right" but "real"...
Love is like giving someone a gun.. having them point it at your heart.
And trusting them to never pull the trigger...
I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better of letting go...
It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.
Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing...
But the truth is:"To have it halfway is harder than not having it at all."
I want to know someone who could ease the pain that i have.. who could hold me tight... the one who will never let me go...
Till every drop of tears that i have had fallen... till every strenght that i have has already passed out.. then i can no longer move...
as she lay me down on my bed, sings me a lullaby till a fall asleep and whisper beside me.. "I will never leave you, angel of mine..
Time may take us away.. space may keep us apart.. rumors and hurts may break us down..
Yet no matter where life lead us..

I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE & I'LL NEVER STOP CARING.."

Good night & sweet dream. God bless

Plox

One year just comes and go in a blink of an eye.
With new year coming ahead.
More new challenges to face, I gotta learn to keep it together.
Though I know, that 2010 is rather... an epic year for me.
I can also vision myself, being rebellious and ignoring everybody. Hah, back to the same old attitude...
The only thing I really need is God.
I need tons of luck too.. 2010, will be full of drama.

Therefore, I would like to end this by wishing everyone Happy New Year & god bless.

Starlight wishes

The river flows smoothly,
The time flows insanely.
I should have noticed it,
But I was to blind to even care about it.
How can I stop everything?
How can I freeze time?

I better drop everything,
I better leave everything,
I am leaving.
Failure is what gave us strength.
Failure is what gave us hope.
Failure is what gave us pride and honor.

Do you still remember the times we had?
Back then...
Things was pretty hectic,
With the war going on between two states.
I lost my patience..
And so did you.
Yet, we still continue living.

Lord know that we are grateful with what we had,
And look at us now?
We are far away from misery,
And we didn't even lose our common touch.
We don't act like kings with slaves,
I am thankful to everything.

Thank you, my dear friend.

What am I trying to say here?
- Dont let jealously take control of you.
- Be thankful with what you have, greediness will just lead to lost.
- Believe is something important in live.

Am I crapping? I guess so, I guess not. I dont know =)

=]

Hello Hell O. =]
Whatssuuuup guys...?
Nothing much happen today...
Just my hair got caught by disiplin teacher (Anthony Raj)"Reaper in our school"
You know... The MAN in black that his teeth glows in the dark. LOL!?? HAHAHAHHAA
Sue me =P
What on earth am i doing lol? Trial exam has started, and i am here reading quotes and poems..
And TAAA~DAAA~
I wrote this....." so-called poem "
Anyway just enjoy it...

As i lay down on the open field
You. You. You.
The only shining star high above the sky
I wonder how i can reach out to you
I am amazed by your bright light
So lovely yet so high above me
The beauty that can never be destroyed..
I never felt so happy before
by just looking at you, the only shining star..!!!

MIND me. I know its short....and i know it sucks if you feel it sucks...
Anyway...i wrote it...with feelings of course..!!!

I am sooo tired now....sleepy too i guess....
Thats all for today =]
And i learn that....

" Try not to become a man of success but a man of value. " - Albert Einstein

LOL

Nelius polluted with his mind again..

" To my fellow form 5 friends.
Guddo Lucky! for exam.
Please beware of exam papers that can make your head burst, and your brain fly off to another table. Heart attack is very common. Poking your eyeballs out with a pencil is common too. Eating up your exam paper is alsoooo common. Instant death is kinda rare. =] "

For me... I'll point a gun at my head and pull the trigger.. That's... very common too = =
Well... Just bored right now =[!!

Good Byeeeee~

08/10/2009

Yeap! Went to school yesterday..

In the morning i stood inside my class.. The wind blows... Made me felt like i'm flowing..

I placed my bag, tooked my seat.. My friends started to talk about Dota (Touda) lol..

I was like... Here they goes again... I looked infront... Maths formula on board.. Looked at the teachers seat... Yeah.. Ketua class(Jing Bao san) was sitting on it. Meant there's no teacher.. So i slept =[ Just to get used to it..after 20minutes.. opened my eyes.. Why so silent all of a sudden?

LOL all my friends falled asleep.. So.. I went down with Patrick without waking the others..

Saw Dave and HJ sat beside a huge dolphin statue.
They started to talk crap.. i sat alone beside them.. Wondering..
Heard the whistle.. Looked at Block E.. All form3's came out.. I faced down... Closed my eyes in awhile..
Then Patrick went back to class to wake those folks..
So yeah! I played the tortoise at the pond.. HAHA!! Cute -.-

After that over 5 friends came down with a smile on their face.. I looked at them.. I was... ermm.. sad?

Don't know why.. It just gave me bright to smile but.... I didn't talk much..

Atleast.. I smiled?

And Sze How saw 'shit fish' (Da bian yu) no idea what name -.-

He said he wanna take that fish back..

I was like.. Chew.. You dare?

HE TOOK! HE REALLY CATCH THAT FISH OMG! "Speechless"

Thief spotted =D



After that we went to dewan.. No one but bag all over.. Then continue walk. Walk till our Peralihan memories place.. Eric took few pictures of us.. Was epic high over their =]

So yeah.. Bla bla bla goes on.. (Monkeys surfing the school during Form3 PMR).. Steady -.-

Today.. 09/10/2009

Right now i'm at dave house while dave washing his car..
Going to library at 11am..

Nelius and brothers must study hard!

Good luck to all those form3's



God bless..

Take care , be happy and stay strong on the following days. =o

Blacklisted "Brothers" forever <3

Front : Sze How & Patrick.
Middle : King Cheng , Eric , Ah Wei , Jia Hao & Shan Rong.
Back : Fui Chang , David , Nelius (Me), Han Juin & Mao

23/08/09 Little wish come true

Huhu.. went to beach yesterday with my bro and friends..
The cloud plus sunset was shoooooooo freaking fantastic!
And of course the ocean yesterday was light BLUE! Ahhhhhh...!!
Yeap perfect view for me yesterday =]

Here's some of the picture that i took..

I took it when chatting with friends under a small tree 0.0






Took this when i go buy drinks haha awesome aint it? LMAO


We're planning to go this sunday again =].

So yeah what a day.. Bye =D

Sad stories

Sad stories.

A writer. His age is between 18 ~ 25.
Was once admired by many people,
One excellent writer, despair over his life.
Lost his love ones, so as his life,
He is only depending on drugs, its his life saver.
He got no one supporting him, nor himself.
He told himself every morning, " Ahh, another day to live "
He pictured his own death,
Every time,Every seconds.
That same old blank feeling flows everyday.
Nothing less, nothing more, but a shadow.

One day, he decided that everything will come to an end.
He went to church, but he did not enter.
Sat alone, outside the church,With a sad, miserable, wrinkled face
Been ignored by society
He asked himself, " What have I done to deserve this Dear Lord? "
And he entered the church with a gun in his ragged shirt.

Sat alone, in a lonely corner.
He point the gun to his head,
And said " Forgive me, Dear Lord "
He closed his eye and pulled the trigger.
Flashback of his life begins
The happy times with his family and friends
He pictured it clearly, he felt happy.
He regretted many things in his life.

Good or bad, you DECIDE! I am just messing around with my polluted brain. LOL

Judgement DAy

Past few days ago was the freaking unluckiest day. Why?
The whether is too hot and the heat is killing me.
And i'm sick too.. Mao belanja me 1 pohpiah
Nelius aint talking. Whats the point god gave Nelius a mouth
Interacting is one of my main weakness...
"Breath in" "Breath out"
Can i skip this topic?
Hate to admit that i had a sexy voice :D ROFL! (Please dont laugh at me)
By the way.
In the morning i brought Rm24 to school. I used Rm0.80 in the morning for my mineral water.
During recess i went to toilet and came back was like gosh? Something was missing!?
Yeah! Freak me out i dropped my RM10 !?#!#?%^ Owh snap! Curse the one who took my money will return back to me. Haha :D
Anyway, the unluckiest part was our SV teacher "Jolin Tsai" Haha.. Not Jolin actually that's her odd name ;].
She told us that there's 7 swimmers back from brunei 4 of them had swine flu h1n1 positive virus.
Okay.. I'm shocked! WHAT THE FISH IS THIS HAPPENING IN OUR SCHOOL & OF COURSE IN OUR COUNTRY!?
God please clean this messed up decease for us.
After that i went to toilet, guess what? i saw Ying Hong
He said "Hey have you heard about h1n1 in our school? There's 7 people caused swine flu."

Speechless.. me and my friends were staring at him jammed like 3 seconds.. OWHHH SHIT?
This is the worst nightmare i ever had in my entire life.
I finally had positive thinking , why something bad still comes to me by stopping me think positively?

I feel lonely today. I feel useless today. Hmm..
I had enough, i'm exhausted.

FEAR NOT
Must stay strong on the followings day PLUS fight till the end =D
You guys TOO!

God bless & save our world for sake.

Finally.

Heh... I sorta hate teachers day celebration.
Why? Was like free food to someone who torture us everyday?
And i admit that i threat them like part of my best friends yesterday.And i dont know why?Maybe i had "Positive mind" ROFL! TT

Owh well to be honest i was thinking of not going to school yesterday.But it's the last year for me to celebrate it D=
Guess what? I didnt regret at ALL! Muahahah!!
What'd i do during teacher day? Surfing the school :)! walk here walk there till i nearly break my legs "sweat" LOL! 'Crap'
Ho! Early morning there's a teacher group photo. And Wong Jin Gui "Our school headmaster" Sat infront like dummy "Mu Tou Ren" Hahaha! Kinda funnny! LMAO
Hmmm.. i realize that i having fun yesterday =]
What's the funniest part? During morning assembly. While i'm in class *catch snake* As you known that the party havent start.
Me with a few friends looted away few sausages & a bottle of soft drinks. LOL! Sue me ;P

By the way thanks Annsovina by bringing her Beef Spaghetti to school, IT'S DELICIOUS! =D She told me that she cooked with her mum until the next morning around 1A.M.Owh my... I'm TOUCHED!

O.M.G did i just said "I'm touched"? 'Cough cough' 'sneef sneef'
Owh well ignore me =D
One day dude! One day, i'll cook this dishes for someone *Woot woot* for me.
"prepare note book" monday go ask for recipe LOL!! :D

Yesterday is my first day tried to be strong and think positive..
So,i did it!I hope the following days still the same.SOO hard to been through a day..
Anyway,I always remember this ''Learn to love yourself before you love someone else''.
Why?

Secret.. =S

God bless and save our world!
Night ^^

Anyway...i dont know what i doing right now..

When i cant make my own decision?Why always people give some opinion,i only can make my own decision?Why i cant get what i want?Did i done anything wrong?Maybe theres something wrong..

i have no confident..i dont love myself..not independent..Thats what i realise..today..

Hmm..guess life really complicated..but its meaningful.We can learn many things,we can realise many things..its pretty cool..But we cant accept our mistakes,..we dont dare to face our problem..

Sometimes we dont even know what,where our mistakes is..Through the environment around us,we only start to realise,become more independent,confidence,accept our mistakes..Become a human being is not easy..,we always need to do our stuff.Time is keep runnig..

From tomorrow on,i must try to do my best get through my day....i have to face it..thats what life about..As someone special to me said ''Always do it better than yesterday..''

Why!

We, as friends, we, as the best of friends, and we, as the best of brothers.

I closed my eyes.. "Silence"
Tears came out from my eyes "Warm"
Peaceful mind "Touched"

Brothers! We've been separated for a years.
I'd a toughful years without you guys.
Sad.

In class was like ½ of me has disappeared.
When i'm in trouble brothers always behind me encourage & support me till the end.
But now..
I'd to face it on my own when i'm in trouble.

I'm stressed without u guys.
Hope you guys could come back to school. "sigh sigh"
~End~

Stupid Sejarah Teacher?

Well... here goes!

Well my Sejarah teacher was malay
yup....she is FREAKING RACIST........treat chinese like pure rubbish.
This is so great...not only the teacher is racist.....the students too!!!

omg freaking MALAYS!!! they went like.... ' oi cina! oi cina! oi cina! ' or ' babi cina? ' zZzZzzZ
WHat's your point by calling us "Babi Cina"!!!

We did nothin wrong to you!

Even when i go to toilet with permission & asked for the pass to toilet kindly..
She shouted at me.
GO ALONG! Dont take my pass!

Well.. I suddenly felt moodless. Shouted at me without reason.Although sometimes i have bad manners..But luckily i'd calm myself down.You cant figure out how angry i am.. So i slammed at the door and walk away.

If i caught by principle or discipline teachers by going to toilet without pass.. Whose responsible for this? STUDENTS OF COURSE ! TEACHERS ALWAYS RIGHT! One word "Demerit" from the principle and discipline to solve this problem.. I hate it!
But luckily i didn't... Phew... "Sigh Sigh"!

by the way`
When i go back to class that female thingo eyes was like sniping on my head..
She's so freaking retarded...
You guys would've see her face.!
Black + Green. My friends said dont kacau her.. She having period just now.. Lol.. Gek dao.

Well last year for me to study... I'll try to avoid problems from her and treat her like my shoes... Step Step Step! xD

I am messed... Once again

I officially hate my life and myself right now...
Yea... i am holding my tears right now...
My parent...
They expect too much....
That day..
My parents just made me feel like..... i should be quiet forever.Ok...this is what happen..

They asked me to share my opinion... (On study chinese)
So.. I told them my opinion
And they just BLEW IT AWAY.....
Then.......they gave thier own opinion and solution....
So i am like.......forced to agree with them?
Everytime i share my opinion on something they tend to stop me...
So yea.... i keep quiet....
What is wrong with my parent?!?!
Since i was kinder garden they put me into Sri Mawar "Private school" that didn't have chinese subject.
They think i am a robot that can continuously study chinese...
Obviously i cant.....
So yea.... i told them...that i cant continuously study chinese...cause i need some rest too?
I cant even have a one day rest?

Thanks.....
Thanks for destroying my life.....
Go ahead......treat me like a robot....
Once the battery run out, its time for the robot to die.

Why is my blog purely a sad case?
Because it gives me pain and anger for me to continue resisting every sadness that i am going
through...

A New classmate

YEA.....finally....!!!
A new chinese boy in my class....
Time to get back on business.....

*Prepare torturing tools*

[ We gonna mess his mind ]
[ Brainwash him ]
[ Pollute his mind with knowledge ]
[ Suck out all his secret ]
Rather a torturing journey.....i must say...

I'm his worst nightmare. Owh well =)

who knows XD

Reaper in my class

Destroyed
Crushed
Ruined
Tortured
Pain
Sadness

I knew it...
Thanks to my Teacher "Puan Sulan"
I used to call her Mulan as well "Sigh"!

A reaper in my class...I cant describe how i feel right now...
But....thanks to Mulan...
She ruined my life..
She destroyed my heart..
She tortured me without realizing..
Because of Mulan, i cant see ' her ' anymore...
Great....
I going to be really lifeless right now...

Sad ?

Hmm...Today? Just a fine pure day...
What am i listening now?

Trademark - OnlyLove
Westlife - Us against the world <3
Westlife - Hard to say i'm sorry
Weslife - Something Right
BackStreet Boys - Shape of my heart
Backstreet Boys - Show me the meaning of being lonely
and etc..

Just made my mood even better lol...!!!

Believe me.. you dont wanna know what and how many favourite songs i like..
I lazy to list all my fav song.. took ages.,
I have over a thousand? *Countless* xD


2.47pm Afternoon.

Went to the bookstore today....haha....FINALLY i get my BM KOMSAS BOOK.No more long story..... i can read the synopsis only =)what cha expect? i am lazy lol....

Around 8.00 Night.

Went to pasar malam( night market ) with my parents. Well...to be honest... i dont like pasar malam....it sucks..!!!Why?

1.Too many people pushing here and there.

2."Rubbish" every conrner, for examples "plastics ,chicken bone , paper cup & etc" Yeah and it's smelly then i thought.

3.Some foods already expired.. What did they expect? Some of them doesn't really care bout it.

I only like pasar malam cause of the cheap stuff.....so yea... i sometimes sorta buy cheap stuff for my friends....cough....cough....COUGH...*ahem* ( i am not that rich )

Today....things sorta turn out well......but bad things gonna happen soon... i can feel it already.... =_=

Miss my COUSIN!

Woho? Didn't post any blog since last year till now O_O Haha.. I'm exited about this 2009 Chinese New Year.Cause my cousin came back from Ipoh.. Hard to have a chance to celebrate Chinese New year together ^^ Hmm.. Too bad i still can't drive =( If i have my car license i'll bring them go shopping and visit friends houses. Hais..! Regret regret! He seems to be sad when he came to Miri =( Staying at grandma house every night.. He wanted to find me but too bad i'm out side with friends T_T Shao Wen! Hope you can forgive me.. I'm proud of you that you have a perfect life back in Ipoh =) Play real gun with friends huh? I'm kinda interested with it HAHA! Too bad no bullets in it LOL.. I remember that day we go Pasar Malam before Chinese New Year lol =) Nearly lost your phone ~_~ But luckily we found it in my fathers car. Nervous lur.! THAT day we almost had a chance to go to the beach! TOo bad it's raining T_T! HATE IT! Chinese New Year rains everyday! After Chinese New Year the weather hot like hell.. Not fair!

Well that's all from me.. Too many memories that i lazy write =S
Take care ya!

23/12/2008 Wicked happy in Imperial apartment

I having fun in apartment that day! We swim , we play , we scream , we dance ,we sing , we chat , we sleep & we fool around together! But... all drink beer & what Label 5.. Haiya! I'm confused, anyway.. I drink soft drinks & mineral water only hahaha! 1st day we rush to the swimming pool at 5th floor XD Well... that time i was looking at the pool.. wanted to jump without take off my cloth! Just can't handle anymore =P Few minute passed i asked my other friends, hey! I can't handle anymore, Can we start swim without waiting others? YEAH! So we JUMP into the pool like Canon ball =X We swim while David and the others book our room xD Muahahahaha! After that they booked a room! They put their bags and etc in our room then join us swim together ;) That day the weathers is windy & raining. I swim till as ma nearly faint inside the pool = =!! I know i breathe a little difficult, from that moment i know what's wrong with me~I'm exhausted, so i swim a side and rest for awhile~ Hehe... My friends were so hyper active.. They suck their shoulder & neck till got Curry Gai LOL! Lucky i didn't let them suck cause i as ma O_O After swim we go back to our room. My whole body was freezing! Raining + Air-Cond bloody cold..I quickly rush into the bathroom take a hot bath to warm my body temperature XD.After that we eat our dinner in room. Thanks to David mum cause she cook all her favourite dishes for us.It's delicious yum yum~ After having our dinner they went down to the shopping complex and buy fast food and soft drinks while I'm in the room take some rest.I can't open my eye cause i'm too weak and tired. The next morning we went to the swimming pool around 7.30am again HAHAHAHA! Crazy huh? =P After that we pack our stuff & we check out at 12pm =]

Hmmm... there's more happy moment about us i lazy write =X

Without God there is no justice. God bless and Merry Christmas to all! Hail the Sun of righteousness... Ciao~ =)

Sweet Memory

17/12/2008
Me, Mao & David went to Imperial & Parkson shopping. And it's David birthday ^^Haha =P Afternoon we went to Imperial cause Mao want make new trousers for school at Grassmen. After that we went down to Imperial Hotel lobby take a sit, we chat & take a few pictures too =] And a lady came and asked "You guys wanna make a wish for X'mas"? And... Yeap! We agreed! We bought a card and we wrote our wish for X'mas! =D Ke si David didn't write =( So... we keep thinking what is our wish for X'mas! Hoho i was struggling.. I wrote.. Full of bless to OUR family & friends! Hope you all have a happy new year! After that we hang our card on a Christmas tree beside a huge biscuit castle. The castle is made of biscuit & cream -,- hardly believe it. I nearly bite that castle LOLS! Hope my little wish come true!
Happy Birthday DABIAK!
See.. your nick name so special ;]

Love my Family & friends forever.
Gawd BLESSS =DD
Toodles~

Blessed Day~

Wahahahahaah!!!! Finally i can let it go~ My mum came back from kuching safety at 6.14pm today with my cousin mum! Before she did'nt tell me which hospital she've gone to. I was worried about it.. And i scare some mad doctor threat her badly~ OMG!! Well she told me what she feel in hospital in Kuching.She've suffered much pain after operation. Luckily the doctor was a kind hearted person ^"^ When she came back . I put a smile on my face! When i look at her.. She was weak.. She walk slowly but i don't know why my smile disappeared & automatically put on a sad faces. Hmph.... Well, morning i was cleaning my SIS toy, books, and etc...Couple of minute many of my mum friends called where is she~ Well i just talk normally. One of my mum friends asked me. What do u feel? Omg that's a retarded question~ =X Hahaha!!! Sorry!!.. Well i told her I'm worrying about her that's all. In the afternoon when she came back.. 2 of my father side family came pay a visit for my mum.. Well.. I'm happy when i saw them chat with my mum happily. Muahahaha!! MY SMILE FACES WAS BACK! SEE =D << LOL!

Got to go by now~
Ciao~
God BlesssssssSSsSsSs XD

Felt sorry for my gang!

Guys... I mean "Dude" i am sorry i cant attend on your Birthday Party.Early in the morning when i woke up.I'd received 3 messages from my friends for asking I'm coming or not.Well.. i was touched at that moment. I wish to go but... My mum having cancel.And she's going to hospital for medical check up & she having operation at 1pm.I just cant let it go.I had to do all the house work. All i wanted to say was hoping you guys having fun their. I hate myself sometimes. We always celebrate birthday party together and i was not their. Bad luck just came to me when i got special days.I got myself a bad reputation. And yet when I've done all my house work. I received an message from Davids mum. She asked how is my mum and she cried when she heard David broke up with her girlfriends. I talk and try to act normal but deep inside i am dying. Just don't give her my worries.. She having enough pressure already. I'd tried to calm her down. And OMG!! This Saturday my friend having dance performances! I was a jerk, Seriously! And i told her i would be their for her.. JUST.... hmph!! Sorry again & again.

Bless my friends & Family! ALWAYS

For David Han

David, cheer up!I think you should stop hoping as if you were dying.. Love is just a feeling that comes and goes…wether you like it or not, if it’s not meant for you, then it’ll never be yours. . Move one. . do what you love, forget about your feelings for her. . . But bear in mind, hey! do not hurry..Let love die a natural death, ok? Who knows? Maybe one day you’ll find the right one.. a girl who truly deserves your love and won’t ever say goodbye.. smile always! Have Faith..God bless

Is this the right Way that u threat my friend like this?

You're the one who falled in love with him.. You guys been together like more than 1 years ! Now All of a sudden said want Broke up!? And Blame us all! What in the world!? You COld Blooded thing! I cant stand it cause this is my Attitude! I hate the person who drag us down without Reason & back stab us! I cant figure it out you are this kind of person.. I've trusted you for a year! You've disappointed us! You make us look you down.. And i'm Sorry~

06/10/2008 My 17th Birthday

Yesterday was my birthday. I'm very happy that my friend celebrated birthday with me. And i having great time spending with you guys! I never regret ^^ Present wasn't important for me! The most important for me is i am Very happy & touched. Friendship is a promise made in my heart. "Silent" "Unwritten" "Unbreakable" by distance "Unchangeable by time.. Once friend ~FOREVER FRIEND~ I just can't live without friends =) Thanks my beloved friends.. Owh yeah! They asked what i wish for my birthday. For me "I hope all of us can be together forever & never leave each other behind "!





Whenever things get tough. No matter what happens, God's still there!

Stupid things happens to me

Since 27/09/2008 Boulevard having School Singing Competition.
At night when i arrive at Boulevard . I go KFC eat suddenly like 2 miss call .
I wonder who are those guy & how they got my phone number. I called them they dont wanna pick up. Ahh! Then i continue eat, i've received Message from a Strange girl , she said : Darling i saw you at KFC with ur parents. Lord Jesus! Freaked me out. I hate those ppl whos irritating me. When i finish my Dinner i go up . It was like WOW many School mates over there = = And there's no place for me to sit. So i stand behind with my cousin. Suddenly i heard a gang of girl coming out from no way shout my name from upstairs. Pissed me off... I quickly go down find my parents begging them to go home as fast as possible! They asked why?They need to buy some stuff. I told them my stomachache as reason. Mum gave me 20sen to go to toilet. OMG! My cousin keep laughing at me . Where should i go? THe only way is to go up again find my friends. Luckily some of my friends come chat with me. After 20minute my parents called me to prepare to go home. GOD BLESSED ME! Hahaha!! When i'm on the way to my cousin new home . That girl msg me again . Said Darling i love you forever. That time i cant stand it anymore, so i replied her. I already have someone i love! Don't you ever find me again! From that minute she never reply me.. Well.. Is that the right way to threat a strange girl like that?Any comment? I have no idea i'm right or wrong.

Music = Life

Hmm...Songs are very important for me..But i like english song the most. Because song brings soul, loves & Joy. Some of the song were very touching. Thus, when i'm not in a mood i'll hear song to calm myself down , when i'm bored i'll hear some of my favourite old song. It makes me feel comfortable & reminds my old memories. Difference song with difference feel. Sometime it makes me smile, cry & sad. When i'm smiling , i dont even know why i'm so happy.. When after crying i feel comfortable. When i'm sad , i feel sleepy. Hmm.. It sounds funny & weird. But this is the way that i feel.

Hmm... I Started my blog at 07/09/2008... And it was my 1st time Blogging =)



Well.! I'm just staying at home do nothing. = = I hope that i can make more friends, so that my life From Dark to Bright! But..Most of my friends felt that i'm Difference with other guy.Hmmm.... Issit? What makes you guys look that i'm difference?= = Some of them thought that i'm a Gangster? Do i? I know my image looks like Gangster.One day i asked my sis named "Vanessa" which part of me that makes u guys looks like a gangster? She said "your hair" = = Well styling my hair is my passion, cant effort to give up.It doesnt matter for me! I hate smoker & people who Abuse Drugs! Those Life ends up by Darkness. So..Think twice! I'm a simple guy though, all of my friends having sweet couple but me.They asked why dont you go find a girl that suit you? I replied them, "I Wonder why"! LOL pissed them off . My friends thought that i'm "Gay"! Owh Mai GAWD, i'm Shocked when i heard that. The stupid thing is, i have no Experience how to love someone. Very weird ey? Few weeks ago a girl named Cindy from MSN. She asked me do you have a girlfriend? I said i dont even know how to love someone. So, she teach me many ways how to attract girls that love you.Her idea was romantic! I never figured it out. Hmm we chatted like more than 3 days. Her idea was good, but i dont dare to face someone who i love. I've disappointed her.



Most of my friends love ends up as Enemy. It's my weakness having enemy! Feel tired.







Well, got to go now. Bye bye! Godbless