Finally.

Heh... I sorta hate teachers day celebration.
Why? Was like free food to someone who torture us everyday?
And i admit that i threat them like part of my best friends yesterday.And i dont know why?Maybe i had "Positive mind" ROFL! TT

Owh well to be honest i was thinking of not going to school yesterday.But it's the last year for me to celebrate it D=
Guess what? I didnt regret at ALL! Muahahah!!
What'd i do during teacher day? Surfing the school :)! walk here walk there till i nearly break my legs "sweat" LOL! 'Crap'
Ho! Early morning there's a teacher group photo. And Wong Jin Gui "Our school headmaster" Sat infront like dummy "Mu Tou Ren" Hahaha! Kinda funnny! LMAO
Hmmm.. i realize that i having fun yesterday =]
What's the funniest part? During morning assembly. While i'm in class *catch snake* As you known that the party havent start.
Me with a few friends looted away few sausages & a bottle of soft drinks. LOL! Sue me ;P

By the way thanks Annsovina by bringing her Beef Spaghetti to school, IT'S DELICIOUS! =D She told me that she cooked with her mum until the next morning around 1A.M.Owh my... I'm TOUCHED!

O.M.G did i just said "I'm touched"? 'Cough cough' 'sneef sneef'
Owh well ignore me =D
One day dude! One day, i'll cook this dishes for someone *Woot woot* for me.
"prepare note book" monday go ask for recipe LOL!! :D

Yesterday is my first day tried to be strong and think positive..
So,i did it!I hope the following days still the same.SOO hard to been through a day..
Anyway,I always remember this ''Learn to love yourself before you love someone else''.
Why?

Secret.. =S

God bless and save our world!
Night ^^

Anyway...i dont know what i doing right now..

When i cant make my own decision?Why always people give some opinion,i only can make my own decision?Why i cant get what i want?Did i done anything wrong?Maybe theres something wrong..

i have no confident..i dont love myself..not independent..Thats what i realise..today..

Hmm..guess life really complicated..but its meaningful.We can learn many things,we can realise many things..its pretty cool..But we cant accept our mistakes,..we dont dare to face our problem..

Sometimes we dont even know what,where our mistakes is..Through the environment around us,we only start to realise,become more independent,confidence,accept our mistakes..Become a human being is not easy..,we always need to do our stuff.Time is keep runnig..

From tomorrow on,i must try to do my best get through my day....i have to face it..thats what life about..As someone special to me said ''Always do it better than yesterday..''

Why!

We, as friends, we, as the best of friends, and we, as the best of brothers.

I closed my eyes.. "Silence"
Tears came out from my eyes "Warm"
Peaceful mind "Touched"

Brothers! We've been separated for a years.
I'd a toughful years without you guys.
Sad.

In class was like ½ of me has disappeared.
When i'm in trouble brothers always behind me encourage & support me till the end.
But now..
I'd to face it on my own when i'm in trouble.

I'm stressed without u guys.
Hope you guys could come back to school. "sigh sigh"
~End~

Stupid Sejarah Teacher?

Well... here goes!

Well my Sejarah teacher was malay
yup....she is FREAKING RACIST........treat chinese like pure rubbish.
This is so great...not only the teacher is racist.....the students too!!!

omg freaking MALAYS!!! they went like.... ' oi cina! oi cina! oi cina! ' or ' babi cina? ' zZzZzzZ
WHat's your point by calling us "Babi Cina"!!!

We did nothin wrong to you!

Even when i go to toilet with permission & asked for the pass to toilet kindly..
She shouted at me.
GO ALONG! Dont take my pass!

Well.. I suddenly felt moodless. Shouted at me without reason.Although sometimes i have bad manners..But luckily i'd calm myself down.You cant figure out how angry i am.. So i slammed at the door and walk away.

If i caught by principle or discipline teachers by going to toilet without pass.. Whose responsible for this? STUDENTS OF COURSE ! TEACHERS ALWAYS RIGHT! One word "Demerit" from the principle and discipline to solve this problem.. I hate it!
But luckily i didn't... Phew... "Sigh Sigh"!

by the way`
When i go back to class that female thingo eyes was like sniping on my head..
She's so freaking retarded...
You guys would've see her face.!
Black + Green. My friends said dont kacau her.. She having period just now.. Lol.. Gek dao.

Well last year for me to study... I'll try to avoid problems from her and treat her like my shoes... Step Step Step! xD

I am messed... Once again

I officially hate my life and myself right now...
Yea... i am holding my tears right now...
My parent...
They expect too much....
That day..
My parents just made me feel like..... i should be quiet forever.Ok...this is what happen..

They asked me to share my opinion... (On study chinese)
So.. I told them my opinion
And they just BLEW IT AWAY.....
Then.......they gave thier own opinion and solution....
So i am like.......forced to agree with them?
Everytime i share my opinion on something they tend to stop me...
So yea.... i keep quiet....
What is wrong with my parent?!?!
Since i was kinder garden they put me into Sri Mawar "Private school" that didn't have chinese subject.
They think i am a robot that can continuously study chinese...
Obviously i cant.....
So yea.... i told them...that i cant continuously study chinese...cause i need some rest too?
I cant even have a one day rest?

Thanks.....
Thanks for destroying my life.....
Go ahead......treat me like a robot....
Once the battery run out, its time for the robot to die.

Why is my blog purely a sad case?
Because it gives me pain and anger for me to continue resisting every sadness that i am going
through...

A New classmate

YEA.....finally....!!!
A new chinese boy in my class....
Time to get back on business.....

*Prepare torturing tools*

[ We gonna mess his mind ]
[ Brainwash him ]
[ Pollute his mind with knowledge ]
[ Suck out all his secret ]
Rather a torturing journey.....i must say...

I'm his worst nightmare. Owh well =)

who knows XD

Reaper in my class

Destroyed
Crushed
Ruined
Tortured
Pain
Sadness

I knew it...
Thanks to my Teacher "Puan Sulan"
I used to call her Mulan as well "Sigh"!

A reaper in my class...I cant describe how i feel right now...
But....thanks to Mulan...
She ruined my life..
She destroyed my heart..
She tortured me without realizing..
Because of Mulan, i cant see ' her ' anymore...
Great....
I going to be really lifeless right now...

Sad ?

Hmm...Today? Just a fine pure day...
What am i listening now?

Trademark - OnlyLove
Westlife - Us against the world <3
Westlife - Hard to say i'm sorry
Weslife - Something Right
BackStreet Boys - Shape of my heart
Backstreet Boys - Show me the meaning of being lonely
and etc..

Just made my mood even better lol...!!!

Believe me.. you dont wanna know what and how many favourite songs i like..
I lazy to list all my fav song.. took ages.,
I have over a thousand? *Countless* xD


2.47pm Afternoon.

Went to the bookstore today....haha....FINALLY i get my BM KOMSAS BOOK.No more long story..... i can read the synopsis only =)what cha expect? i am lazy lol....

Around 8.00 Night.

Went to pasar malam( night market ) with my parents. Well...to be honest... i dont like pasar malam....it sucks..!!!Why?

1.Too many people pushing here and there.

2."Rubbish" every conrner, for examples "plastics ,chicken bone , paper cup & etc" Yeah and it's smelly then i thought.

3.Some foods already expired.. What did they expect? Some of them doesn't really care bout it.

I only like pasar malam cause of the cheap stuff.....so yea... i sometimes sorta buy cheap stuff for my friends....cough....cough....COUGH...*ahem* ( i am not that rich )

Today....things sorta turn out well......but bad things gonna happen soon... i can feel it already.... =_=

Miss my COUSIN!

Woho? Didn't post any blog since last year till now O_O Haha.. I'm exited about this 2009 Chinese New Year.Cause my cousin came back from Ipoh.. Hard to have a chance to celebrate Chinese New year together ^^ Hmm.. Too bad i still can't drive =( If i have my car license i'll bring them go shopping and visit friends houses. Hais..! Regret regret! He seems to be sad when he came to Miri =( Staying at grandma house every night.. He wanted to find me but too bad i'm out side with friends T_T Shao Wen! Hope you can forgive me.. I'm proud of you that you have a perfect life back in Ipoh =) Play real gun with friends huh? I'm kinda interested with it HAHA! Too bad no bullets in it LOL.. I remember that day we go Pasar Malam before Chinese New Year lol =) Nearly lost your phone ~_~ But luckily we found it in my fathers car. Nervous lur.! THAT day we almost had a chance to go to the beach! TOo bad it's raining T_T! HATE IT! Chinese New Year rains everyday! After Chinese New Year the weather hot like hell.. Not fair!

Well that's all from me.. Too many memories that i lazy write =S
Take care ya!

23/12/2008 Wicked happy in Imperial apartment

I having fun in apartment that day! We swim , we play , we scream , we dance ,we sing , we chat , we sleep & we fool around together! But... all drink beer & what Label 5.. Haiya! I'm confused, anyway.. I drink soft drinks & mineral water only hahaha! 1st day we rush to the swimming pool at 5th floor XD Well... that time i was looking at the pool.. wanted to jump without take off my cloth! Just can't handle anymore =P Few minute passed i asked my other friends, hey! I can't handle anymore, Can we start swim without waiting others? YEAH! So we JUMP into the pool like Canon ball =X We swim while David and the others book our room xD Muahahahaha! After that they booked a room! They put their bags and etc in our room then join us swim together ;) That day the weathers is windy & raining. I swim till as ma nearly faint inside the pool = =!! I know i breathe a little difficult, from that moment i know what's wrong with me~I'm exhausted, so i swim a side and rest for awhile~ Hehe... My friends were so hyper active.. They suck their shoulder & neck till got Curry Gai LOL! Lucky i didn't let them suck cause i as ma O_O After swim we go back to our room. My whole body was freezing! Raining + Air-Cond bloody cold..I quickly rush into the bathroom take a hot bath to warm my body temperature XD.After that we eat our dinner in room. Thanks to David mum cause she cook all her favourite dishes for us.It's delicious yum yum~ After having our dinner they went down to the shopping complex and buy fast food and soft drinks while I'm in the room take some rest.I can't open my eye cause i'm too weak and tired. The next morning we went to the swimming pool around 7.30am again HAHAHAHA! Crazy huh? =P After that we pack our stuff & we check out at 12pm =]

Hmmm... there's more happy moment about us i lazy write =X

Without God there is no justice. God bless and Merry Christmas to all! Hail the Sun of righteousness... Ciao~ =)

Sweet Memory

17/12/2008
Me, Mao & David went to Imperial & Parkson shopping. And it's David birthday ^^Haha =P Afternoon we went to Imperial cause Mao want make new trousers for school at Grassmen. After that we went down to Imperial Hotel lobby take a sit, we chat & take a few pictures too =] And a lady came and asked "You guys wanna make a wish for X'mas"? And... Yeap! We agreed! We bought a card and we wrote our wish for X'mas! =D Ke si David didn't write =( So... we keep thinking what is our wish for X'mas! Hoho i was struggling.. I wrote.. Full of bless to OUR family & friends! Hope you all have a happy new year! After that we hang our card on a Christmas tree beside a huge biscuit castle. The castle is made of biscuit & cream -,- hardly believe it. I nearly bite that castle LOLS! Hope my little wish come true!
Happy Birthday DABIAK!
See.. your nick name so special ;]

Love my Family & friends forever.
Gawd BLESSS =DD
Toodles~

Blessed Day~

Wahahahahaah!!!! Finally i can let it go~ My mum came back from kuching safety at 6.14pm today with my cousin mum! Before she did'nt tell me which hospital she've gone to. I was worried about it.. And i scare some mad doctor threat her badly~ OMG!! Well she told me what she feel in hospital in Kuching.She've suffered much pain after operation. Luckily the doctor was a kind hearted person ^"^ When she came back . I put a smile on my face! When i look at her.. She was weak.. She walk slowly but i don't know why my smile disappeared & automatically put on a sad faces. Hmph.... Well, morning i was cleaning my SIS toy, books, and etc...Couple of minute many of my mum friends called where is she~ Well i just talk normally. One of my mum friends asked me. What do u feel? Omg that's a retarded question~ =X Hahaha!!! Sorry!!.. Well i told her I'm worrying about her that's all. In the afternoon when she came back.. 2 of my father side family came pay a visit for my mum.. Well.. I'm happy when i saw them chat with my mum happily. Muahahaha!! MY SMILE FACES WAS BACK! SEE =D << LOL!

Got to go by now~
Ciao~
God BlesssssssSSsSsSs XD

Felt sorry for my gang!

Guys... I mean "Dude" i am sorry i cant attend on your Birthday Party.Early in the morning when i woke up.I'd received 3 messages from my friends for asking I'm coming or not.Well.. i was touched at that moment. I wish to go but... My mum having cancel.And she's going to hospital for medical check up & she having operation at 1pm.I just cant let it go.I had to do all the house work. All i wanted to say was hoping you guys having fun their. I hate myself sometimes. We always celebrate birthday party together and i was not their. Bad luck just came to me when i got special days.I got myself a bad reputation. And yet when I've done all my house work. I received an message from Davids mum. She asked how is my mum and she cried when she heard David broke up with her girlfriends. I talk and try to act normal but deep inside i am dying. Just don't give her my worries.. She having enough pressure already. I'd tried to calm her down. And OMG!! This Saturday my friend having dance performances! I was a jerk, Seriously! And i told her i would be their for her.. JUST.... hmph!! Sorry again & again.

Bless my friends & Family! ALWAYS

For David Han

David, cheer up!I think you should stop hoping as if you were dying.. Love is just a feeling that comes and goes…wether you like it or not, if it’s not meant for you, then it’ll never be yours. . Move one. . do what you love, forget about your feelings for her. . . But bear in mind, hey! do not hurry..Let love die a natural death, ok? Who knows? Maybe one day you’ll find the right one.. a girl who truly deserves your love and won’t ever say goodbye.. smile always! Have Faith..God bless

Is this the right Way that u threat my friend like this?

You're the one who falled in love with him.. You guys been together like more than 1 years ! Now All of a sudden said want Broke up!? And Blame us all! What in the world!? You COld Blooded thing! I cant stand it cause this is my Attitude! I hate the person who drag us down without Reason & back stab us! I cant figure it out you are this kind of person.. I've trusted you for a year! You've disappointed us! You make us look you down.. And i'm Sorry~

06/10/2008 My 17th Birthday

Yesterday was my birthday. I'm very happy that my friend celebrated birthday with me. And i having great time spending with you guys! I never regret ^^ Present wasn't important for me! The most important for me is i am Very happy & touched. Friendship is a promise made in my heart. "Silent" "Unwritten" "Unbreakable" by distance "Unchangeable by time.. Once friend ~FOREVER FRIEND~ I just can't live without friends =) Thanks my beloved friends.. Owh yeah! They asked what i wish for my birthday. For me "I hope all of us can be together forever & never leave each other behind "!





Whenever things get tough. No matter what happens, God's still there!

Stupid things happens to me

Since 27/09/2008 Boulevard having School Singing Competition.
At night when i arrive at Boulevard . I go KFC eat suddenly like 2 miss call .
I wonder who are those guy & how they got my phone number. I called them they dont wanna pick up. Ahh! Then i continue eat, i've received Message from a Strange girl , she said : Darling i saw you at KFC with ur parents. Lord Jesus! Freaked me out. I hate those ppl whos irritating me. When i finish my Dinner i go up . It was like WOW many School mates over there = = And there's no place for me to sit. So i stand behind with my cousin. Suddenly i heard a gang of girl coming out from no way shout my name from upstairs. Pissed me off... I quickly go down find my parents begging them to go home as fast as possible! They asked why?They need to buy some stuff. I told them my stomachache as reason. Mum gave me 20sen to go to toilet. OMG! My cousin keep laughing at me . Where should i go? THe only way is to go up again find my friends. Luckily some of my friends come chat with me. After 20minute my parents called me to prepare to go home. GOD BLESSED ME! Hahaha!! When i'm on the way to my cousin new home . That girl msg me again . Said Darling i love you forever. That time i cant stand it anymore, so i replied her. I already have someone i love! Don't you ever find me again! From that minute she never reply me.. Well.. Is that the right way to threat a strange girl like that?Any comment? I have no idea i'm right or wrong.

Music = Life

Hmm...Songs are very important for me..But i like english song the most. Because song brings soul, loves & Joy. Some of the song were very touching. Thus, when i'm not in a mood i'll hear song to calm myself down , when i'm bored i'll hear some of my favourite old song. It makes me feel comfortable & reminds my old memories. Difference song with difference feel. Sometime it makes me smile, cry & sad. When i'm smiling , i dont even know why i'm so happy.. When after crying i feel comfortable. When i'm sad , i feel sleepy. Hmm.. It sounds funny & weird. But this is the way that i feel.

Hmm... I Started my blog at 07/09/2008... And it was my 1st time Blogging =)



Well.! I'm just staying at home do nothing. = = I hope that i can make more friends, so that my life From Dark to Bright! But..Most of my friends felt that i'm Difference with other guy.Hmmm.... Issit? What makes you guys look that i'm difference?= = Some of them thought that i'm a Gangster? Do i? I know my image looks like Gangster.One day i asked my sis named "Vanessa" which part of me that makes u guys looks like a gangster? She said "your hair" = = Well styling my hair is my passion, cant effort to give up.It doesnt matter for me! I hate smoker & people who Abuse Drugs! Those Life ends up by Darkness. So..Think twice! I'm a simple guy though, all of my friends having sweet couple but me.They asked why dont you go find a girl that suit you? I replied them, "I Wonder why"! LOL pissed them off . My friends thought that i'm "Gay"! Owh Mai GAWD, i'm Shocked when i heard that. The stupid thing is, i have no Experience how to love someone. Very weird ey? Few weeks ago a girl named Cindy from MSN. She asked me do you have a girlfriend? I said i dont even know how to love someone. So, she teach me many ways how to attract girls that love you.Her idea was romantic! I never figured it out. Hmm we chatted like more than 3 days. Her idea was good, but i dont dare to face someone who i love. I've disappointed her.



Most of my friends love ends up as Enemy. It's my weakness having enemy! Feel tired.







Well, got to go now. Bye bye! Godbless